Recent Smiles...Frowns

:-)
- The smell of someone grilling bbq chicken as I walked through the neighborhood behind Birkdale Village
- A friend making me a to-do list that included getting money for concert tickets as well as snagging a second date with a guy I like
- Making progress on a new task at work and having someone look to me for advice on it

:-(
- Mail I send not getting delivered
- Angst about poor judgment
- Bank account balance

I kind of had an odd empty feeling as I walked this evening. I went out a little before 8pm and walked for an hour. It felt good. The temperature was perfect. Lots of people were milling about, and the neighborhood behind my apartment is full of cute houses with charming yards. Something about it was isolating though. All the families, laughter...I sort of felt like the odd man out. I wish I could better articulate the exact emotions that were running through me. Some days this feels like home and others not so much.

I am going to go wash my cooler now. Yeah, its lame - but it needs to be done.