Brave...

It is a sad day. But I am doing OK. Justin was VERY brave for me and I thank him so much.

We were on the way to the dump by Bunky's - driving rather slowly because the bed of the truck was full. He slammed his palm over my eyes. I immediately knew what it was.

We took the next turn and hit a stop sign. Justin leaned into me. I was strong for him. He protected me so well.

Only Gohan. Not Squig.

We didn't talk about it.

It is not Justin's fault. We both could have been more proactive in preventing this. I only asked that Justin do what Gohan deserved. To go get him and bring him home. I knew it was cruel of me to do. But I could not stand knowing that he was there. I guess it is good to know though - as opposed to not knowing.

We had to go to Lowe's and the grocery store. Still did not talk about it. When just about home I knew Justin needed to talk about it. We did. We cried.

After unloading the truck Justin went to get him. He was so brave. I never want him to have to do anything like that again. So, Gohan is back home. For good this time. My baby boy - I'll miss you.

I will never be able to thank Justin enough for what he did this afternoon.

Gohan Pictures

So, if you are reading this and have not talked to me about it. I already know - you're sorry. You are sad for us. But please - do not ask me to talk about it. Or what we should have done differently. I hate having people see me like I am now.

Thank you Todd & Kristina for being cheerful this evening and giving us something to do it helped to keep me distracted at least, and I appreciate that. And thank you Matt for entertaining me with a few silly stories on the phone.